Monday, September 25, 2006
Hmmmm.... kawan2 ku, bile la kita nk kluar berbuka sama2?
Bergesel2 bdn di geylang dgn org2 yg berpeluh2 mcm aru abis 2.4km run.
Kita mkn daging deng2 sesama.
Bile eh?? Bile eh?? =)
2 days before puasa, pi kubur wit ayah.
Da lama sey tk visit kubur arwah hakim.
Makin tak ingat dunia lak aku ni. *haizzzzz*
Btw it was gd to b there again. Feel closer to him.
Few days ago, tok to monn-teroo on d fone. Mcm da lama gitu tak bebual ngan abg army kita ni kat tepon. Btw da takleh panggil monn agi uh. Da tak cool uh. Kita skrg call him Yat, Yet or simply HIDAYAT. jeng! kwakwakwa! Btw we tok abt the ex chestnut guys. Da lama sey tk jumpe dorg. Mcm rindu lak. *haiz* ni la tyme2 emo aku ni. haha. tapi serious uh. i miss u guys. The lepak-ing, the mengarot-ing, the mengutuk-ing... d list goes on laaa!! hahahaaa! Me n monn still remember wen we go raya 2gether few years bck. Der was lyke 20 of us!! We rock every house we went to. It was so cool. Nothing can replace those moments. hah! Dis year gona be totally diff. juz a few of us. N the kutuk-ing, mengarot-ing level gona be low. Lyke dey say good things must come to an end. Sad huh? But dats life.
P.s: I love you.
patriotikSoul... 10:27 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
Happy 14th Birthday bro!!
14 dude! haha! i cant imagine u being 14 n studying in a sec sch. having ur own group of frens. juz like mine... i cant imagine u being in a relationship wit a gerl. having probs wit ayah or ibu. we sharing the same room. sharing the bed. we'll go out to town or sumwer n chill out like buddies.
i cant imagine how it will be if u were here...
i've accepted dat ur gone. coz of u i changed. for the better.
i'll pray for u everyday...
patriotikSoul... 1:08 PM
Sunday, May 28, 2006Hey yo! hmm... dis few days has been great.
Werk has really taken over my slacking lifestyle... aarghhh! 1 year n 4 mths left. faster! faster! i wan to lead a normal life again. hah!
Really miss arwah Muhd Haziq Hakim... juz wanna hold u bro. dats all. miss u. =)
patriotikSoul... 2:22 PM
All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows
Trusting those around you is an easy thing to do
I'm not saying don't believe in someone that you don't know
Just don't go on thinking that the whole world tells the truth.
It's all fucked up, being reserved and quiet
She doesn't understand the message that you send
Don't give it all away somewhere, sometimes there's someone
Who can replace that state of mind, you never give it time.
All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows
Letting everybody crawl inside your heart and mind
Kicking you is easy when you're down
To release their anger on someone who will not try
To stand up and give them a fight.
patriotikSoul... 2:12 PM
Saturday, April 08, 2006Bisshhhhh~!!
one of the fren has gone to serve the nation... left one more.
the big one. =)
Okokk..GdLuck to Md Nizzam Bin Samat!! Kwa kwa Kwa!!
Monn!! bile ko nye turn?!! eh! monn tak yah ns la. dier kan bob marley nye anak... lupe plak.
Awak... love u k... i dun hav to xplain things here. u kno wat u shud kno oredi... ppl can hoohhaaa anything abt us. as if i care. hahaha... the fantastik 4 understand the situation k... bunch of lovely n colorful peeps.
patriotikSoul... 9:38 PM
Sunday, April 02, 2006My bad.
Everything seems to be in a mess. I tot i gave u everything but i guess im wrong. U expect more from me. Everytime we quarrel, im the cause of it. It used to be the aden issue ryte. Now my frens. It make look as if u hate my frens. but i kno ur not. U juz need dat special attention frm me. N i didnt gave u juz dat. I cant blame anyone for dis but myself. im being unfair to u. for appreciating my frens more den u.
Tapi asal mcm tak cukop? i can spend like everyday wit u n yet to u its not enuf. During the 1st few mths,we spend so much tyme together. Even now wen im oredi werkin irregularly, i will stil find tyme to go out wit u. u complained we dun tok like how we used to. i dun treat u like how i used to. i always believe tings change but to think of it again, im doin dis to the person i love. So i try to change myself. Cos i told u b4 dat i cant give watever razak can give u. Ur askin too much frm me dat i dun think i can give.
I've said im sorry. I will change. i will never tok abt my frens in front of u. i will never show any appreciation to my frens to u. We will only tok abt us. Dats wat u want ryte. i'll do it for u.
Im not wit u juz bcoz i need a replacement for aden. im wit u coz i love u.
U said dat i brushed u off wen u complained stuffs to me. im sori. how can i not brush u off if its all abt the same farkin problems. For goodness sake, try me complaining to u for a zillion tyme abt my bestfren saying bad things behind my back. wat wud u do.? u can onli afford to listen and say its ok la. ryte?
Im really sorry awak...
Im not saying sorry for the sake of saying it. I mean it. maybe i juz didnt give u much attention. maybe i didnt give u enuf love. maybe i didnt give enuf support. maybe im not good enuf for u. maybe im not matured enuf. i dunno.
u kno y i was asleep last nyte? coz dats one of the things i do to curb my temper. coz i dun wan to get mad at u. im frustrated awak. frustrated coz all dis while i tot i gave u everything. but i didnt.
maybe now ur having doubts abt me. am i the ONE for u?
im sure ur askin urself dat. it oredi shows in ur blog. loves him but still looking for him. from der i kno im not gd enuf for u. i shud try harder to win u over totally. but i dun think i can now. from day one i oredi told u dat i dun wan to find anymore n i tell myself dat no matter wat, ur the one. but i guess now tings change. maybe im not the him dat u looking for ryte?
I really dunno wat to say. i've said im sori. i told u last nyte i will change. n u walked off. wat more wrong i've done? i wonder....
patriotikSoul... 12:50 PM
Friday, March 03, 2006
Love life has never been better. she's sweet. she oredi has her 5years plan. im planning one for myself too. hah! missing her oredi. leaving me for langkawi on our 6th monthsary? too much! but i'll pray u have a safe journey k... nine more days to go! gotta be strong! hmmph!
i really need a holiday for myself too. gonna use up my leave. got 14days of it. planning to go around May i guess. hmmm.... tot of doin volunteering werk again. but not 4pm. wanna do sumthing diff.
planning of goin back to study after NS. its gona be serious studying. dis tyme im gona do wat i always wanted. its a risk im gona take. i cant possibly depend on dat stoopid info comm cert. have to admit dat i wont go anywhere wit it. damn.
i dun realli care wat ibu n ayah said to me. they have been lookin down on me. not giving me the support to join shatec n open my own cafe. they kip on telling me to sign on police. i kno its hard to find a job outside. but i dun wan to go out n do sumthing which i dun like. i wan to do wat i wan even if im taking the risk. no matter wat, before i die im gonna have a cafe of my own. its my dream. no one can take dat dream away frm me except God Himself... hmmm...
patriotikSoul... 9:03 PM
Sunday, January 08, 2006
.See how much she adore me.
patriotikSoul... 4:11 PM